Alas I sit,
      glued to a place of undoing and unmaking
      of all the mistakes I have achieved
         or contemplated making.
Waiting for renewed independence.
      Proving to you who I am
            and who I can be 
                 and who I shall become.

No longer broken, but bent
     Bent upon making a difference
           with different choices and
           new becomings

Reframing my thoughts
     and laying down my rebellion
     to fight for a future 
          instead of wants I thought
          I so needed but didn't
         
An though committed by a decree
      that states I am an "other"
      in need ot care and watchful
      eyes

I have learned what commitment 
      truly is - that it is the love
      of family who remains
          hopeful and helpful
      that it is the love of
      my sweetheart who 
          stands true
      that it is a belief in myself
           that I can do and be better
           and emerge from
           a state run commitment
     to a self formed commitment
           of being true to myself
           and all of you.