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My Only Excuse
by Ms Beeds → (All Poetry by Ms Beeds)
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I can no longer stop the madness

My only excuse...

Is that I was blind to my heart's conspiracy,

I never considered its cruel disregard for "what has been"

Never guessed its pursuit of "what could be".

I wish my culpability could be denied.

I wish blame could be relegated  

I wish I was unaware that absolution of self will never be granted.

My life as I knew it has been shattered

I accept all blame as my eyes are wide open

I leapt into the abyss with intent

My hearts disregard of "what has been" complete,

It manipulated my surrender  to "what could be".

My motto has become "C'est la vie!!

The pain that will result

Is merely a question of time and circumstance

But know, the blame lies with my heart

It was unable to relinquish you

Its addicition overwhelmed my guilt.

My heart's decision left me defenseless

In truth, I offered only minimal resistance

You and my heart led to an introspection of self.

You invaded my soul and left me breathless

You made me use words

You are the fulfillment of all my heart knew possible

And that which I never believed could be true .

I never thought to be handled with such care

You breached my defenses

And tasted my marshmallow center.

My heart, it seems, picked well.

Thus, my heart is entrusted to you alone. 

 


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 Reviews of "My Only Excuse"
Reviewed by Carin Spirit
Reviewed on June 18, 2009
It seems as though your healing has taken place. I am happy for you and sounds like a new beginning. Be Well Always, Carin'


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