He was my husband and I loved and trusted him

I never knew how he really felt within

But  a while after his friend moved close by 

Our relationship grew dem and dry

He began to not  have any time for me

That is not how it was suppose to be

We were always together and the best friends

And I never thought thatour marriage  would ever end

We had such a closeness that wasso different from  the rest

All of my close friends even thought we were the best

I told him that I needed to talk with him last night

But he quiclky thought of a reason to start a fight

As the tears of sorrow ran down my face

I was not prepared nor did I want to run this race

I knew then that I needed GOD and his grace

He has never hurt me or done me wrong

We had been together for so long

He never allowed me to bond anyone else, he was all I had

When he left out of our house with him that very night

I knew in my heart that something just was not right

I was so lost and oh I so confused 

I really did not know what I would do

When he walked out with him I knew

That it was just not normal for a man to do

To submissive his wife, nor to a hottie girlfriend

I could not help but wonder why he was always with him 

There were many times that I wanted to follow them

I have always trusted him for many years

All this time he never cause me any hurt nor pain

But now I'm feeling like I'm going insane

He needs to explain and tell me why

When his friend comes over he won' t even say hi 

What have I done to him that makes him do me this way

I am his wife and he is my husband

As I lay awake in my bed, I could feel that he was doing wrong

I got up so fst and quiclky put my clothes on

I began to  follow my instincts as I always have

Something within told me to call a cab

He picked me up and we rode to the Hotel, it was not very far

As soon as he pulled into the lot I saw his car

He really needs to  explain and tell me why

I waited so badly to see who he was with and why

I was so mad at him I could have knocked him to the sky

I always thought about how men friends did

To help them get away and out of the house

everytime he would come to my house I would get quiet as a mouse

Not really wanting my husband to go

I knew if I asked him to stay with me he would say no

I often had a feeling that he was cheating on me

I was hoping and praying that he would not be

I sat there at the Hotel for a few  hours

And when said take me home, he said no you are no coward

I was getting tired and  very sleepy too

Many things crossed my mind of what I should do

When I said for the last time to go. I saw him slowly open the door

I wondered who was he with in that hotel room

All of a sudden as I watched it hit me BOOM!

If I had not been there to see it all  on my own

I would swore someone it wasn' t him but a clone

I thought my mind was not palying tricks on me

And I knew this was not how it was suppose to be

He was my husband, and he betrayed me.

He should have told me that he loved men

I would not had married him and involved in his sin

But I would have been  a nice and good friend

He could have been honest from beginning to end

Oh That is so nasty, why couldn't he see

To be with a man and then come lay with me

He disrespected me totally and he needs to go on

Because if he does not i will pull out my tone

I am so done with him as of this day

I know He will try hard to have his way

Not knowing that I was there and saw him with his man

I know that he didn't because he would have ran

I can't believe all this, that  he has done to me

He betrayed me,and he was my husband, my lover and my friend

I was tricked into thinking we woul  be until the end

I took alot of time for me and my heart did mend

It is really sad that we as women have to check our men, so that we will not get caught up in the ultimate sin

I prayed for him and  I was able to  moved on

                                                                             ~ La' Wanda Sharriese