Back In Time

sometimes I go back, back in time

a genteel era, those days were mine

with Sunday school and picnics too

faith and  friends who cared for you

When I was just a girl I believed

time and life would be good to me

I knew so little wanted so much

the real world? I was out of touch

learned some hard lessons in time

some I loved, their love wasn't mine

what had I done to create such strife?

not always what we do, it's just life

jade eyes I fell in love with as a girl

a universe contained in a tiny world

tears began early, love died so young

last drop of hope from my heart wrung

often I faltered, times I didn't pray

a drudge who gave up on a better day

suffering in silence, unknown unloved

but I never adjusted to how it was

in time, long time, midst the cold storm

the sun shone down and I was warm

now I have what I wanted life to be

but I left some behind I still long to see

I'm not young and foolish anymore

to the pain of the past I shut the door

I live in peace and in love I bask

God has saved the best for last