I SHOULDN'T BE HERE
(July 11, 2013)
I shouldn't be here
In this place that brings me no comfort,
This place where every stare
Cuts through me like a knife,
Slicing deep,
Taking me apart inch by inch,
Until there is nothing left of me
But pieces of a puzzle
I'll never be able to put back as a whole.
I don't belong amongst these people,
For what they think of me
Is not the person that I am,
That I am meant to be.
I shouldn't be here,
Yet here I am amongst these people
Pretending like everything is fine
When it is not.
Yes, these people are my people
But are they really my people?
Are we one and the same?
Are any of us really here
Because we have to be here?
Or are we just here
Because we have nowhere else to go?
© Copyright 2013 by Lena Kovadlo
From my book An Unforgettable Journey
I wrote this piece in my writing class. We were given a list of phrases and had to choose one that resonated with us and write a very short memoir or fiction piece in five minutes. I chose the phrase I shoulnd't be here and what you read above is what I ended up writing. No editing has been done. Upon reading it now I realize it is more poetic than just standard prose so posted it as a poem piece. The piece is a bit philosophical and psychological. There is depth to it too. Please let me know your thoughts on it...
Not much choice but to hang around.
There are such blessings I embrace- but most seem in spite of being here.
John
Fakhre
Regis
different classes, schooling, etc. I have felt intimidated, alienated, shy...I'm sure you get the picture. Enjoyed.
Always,
Deborah
being of vision, Lena
Lady Vivian
Very psychological and instructive poem.
Ron