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Kaleidoscope Down
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Bipolar flip-side


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What happened to my love of love
Embroiled in hazy hours of bliss?
Why did the songs of heartfelt joy
Bestow this dark and dire abyss?

What happened to the light of life?
Who stole the magic from my days?
Who turned my dreams of faith and hope
Into these dreary, cold forays?

Yesterday was Bright and Bold!
A Spectacle of Buoyancy!
A Technicolor Cabaret
With spirits Flying, High and Free!


Why, oh why must life persist
In dredging through such dirt and dirge?
Oh spare me from this gloomy pit
Of solitude, in hellish purge!

When light turns dark and heat's gone cold
Such sadness settles, grey, on me
With pain drawn deeply, sharp and strong
Despair ensures despondency

Assurance that the light still shines
Cannot betray my vision's lie
When black on black and white on white
Repels all colour from my sky

As life moves further out of reach
Survival strains at every breath
Until at last it comes to me
The only choice I see is death.

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I wrote this after talking with someone who suffers bi-polar disorder.
I wanted to try to convey the rapid extremes of the sufferers.

 

 

 


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 Reviews of "Kaleidoscope Down"
Reviewed by D. Vegas (Reader)
Reviewed on November 27, 2013
Bi-polar is a terrible mood disorder and Ruan, you have
described it with your descriptive words...thank you.

Always,

Deborah

Reviewed by Odin odin@aflx.com
Reviewed on November 20, 2013
Being familiar with the subject, you've grounded a great deal for the average person to digest.

Reviewed by Tamara Burke (Reader)
Reviewed on November 18, 2013
Love it! Showed a few people this and they all said it was 'very good' and 'inspiring'. :) I think its a great poem, very proud of you Nonna xxxxxxxxx

Reviewed by Budd Nelson
Reviewed on November 18, 2013
perfectly described and penned
budd

Reviewed on November 17, 2013
Excellent descriptive capture.

Reviewed by Ronald Hull
Reviewed on November 17, 2013
Thank you for your explanation. I thought this was happening to you from your poem. It must be hell to suffer such a disorder where one day you are feeling high and the next day very low. Our family has Agoura phobia and it hasn't been pleasant for my sister and my niece. Poetry like this can help enlighten everyone on the mental conditions life traps us in.

Ron

Reviewed by Michael True
Reviewed on November 17, 2013
Excellent verse. Was tempted to scold you until I read the "epilog." So many get caught up in the on again - off again nature of love. What most don't realize is that our demons of commerce have sold us this load of bull in order to perpetuate the myth that love is contingent on what you wear, your mouthwash, your car, etc., to rekindle the flame. True love is pervasive and starts with self. Through this same love we are linked to God's creation and therefore we are never really alone.

Reviewed by E Phillips
Reviewed on November 17, 2013
This is simply brilliant! And good evidence that the best of poets can reach beyond the veil and illuminate dark places where angels fear to tread. I am flabbergasted at your talent.

Reviewed by Andy Turner
Reviewed on November 17, 2013
OUCH! Shifting moods rather than finding that allusive centre.

Reviewed by Jerry Bolton
Reviewed on November 17, 2013
I've self described myself as bi-polor, especially during those lost decades of my past. I destroyed everything good around me. I still radically shift my moods, but since I am alone it doesn't hurt anyone but me.

Reviewed by Mr. Ed
Reviewed on November 17, 2013
So very sad.


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