I Am Not My Ownby ObsidianRavenShadow

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse
©2014 ObsidianRavenShadow

Outside ?
Inside ?
Confusion...
Help !!! Help !!!

There are so many voices inside my head
All across my soul they tread
When they speak for me
It is with utter dread
My tapestry of life
is worn down to a thread
Ultimately wanting me dead

I see myself from afar
Doing strange things unbeknownst to me,
things that are not my own
Speaking words, sometimes awful words,
that are not my own

Yet they are spoken with lips
That are a reflection of mine
I have thoughts...confusing and maddening
Thoughts that in no way are my own

I see and hear my other self
In disgust
For I have no control
Resistance is futile

All I am able to see
Is whichever self is put in front of me

So from afar I watch in horror
As to the words that leave those lips
Hatred, Resentment, and Jealosy
Spit as venom

This other me
Throws darts deep into the heart
Of my love
Of my Beloved
My One and Only

My repulsion cannot exceed
This horrific torment and abuse
To my beloved's soul
My love
I'm  sorry

How to stop the voices in my head
How to stop the scenes of agony
Hell is Real !!!
And it is in the mind
Hell is in my Head !!!

I watch in helplessness
As my other self sends my beloved
Deeper into his own personal Hell

There is no explanation,
Not that I'm aware of
For these different selves to surface...
With No Choice !!!
I Am Not My Own !!!
You Are Not Your own !!!

So who is the Real me ???

Forget Me Not by DA's Severed-Heads Art Pillowby ObsidianRavenShadow

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