Unable to Resist You !   In your calming manner, you taught me, how not to lose my temper, how to control my anger, I learnt ! Often this anger would surge within you spoke gently and calmed me, my temper so often was bound to rage, that too, again with your understanding, you eased. I have become a lot more controlled a nicer person to be around, it has been because of you. But one sad fact still remains, and that is, you cannot teach me how to, control my hurt ! I just need for you to realise, it's not the big things in life that hurt, they are but the small ones ! those are the ones that really cut the deepest, that tear out the heart, rip me apart, expose me to so much pain, you may never understand, when you merely shut me out ! The feelings are totally overwhelming, I feel so lost and alone, so rejected and confused, used and abused, and yet, with a snap of your fingers, I am unable to resist you, even though the pain and hurt lay so deep within, I open my arms, and let you in again !   Copyright Elga ~Indigo~ October 2004 - all rights reserved