Millions of thoughts go through my mind everyday

words never spoken, even when i know what i want to say

always wondering whether i am the only one who feels

the passion and the love that to me is truly real

patiently waiting for the fire to be re-kindled

like a child with no money staring at that toy in the window

trying to forget the hurt and betrayal of the past

like a energizer bunny my love still lasts

believing that you love me and yet i still find

thoughts of doubt running through the back of my mind

wanting to kiss you, hold you and caress

but in return i feel that your thoughts are just less

desiring to be what i was called to be

but feeling like i am loosing you because i want to be an honorable priest

trying so hard to understand what goes through your heart

sometimes i get depressed when it starts tearing me apart

the twinkle in your eye, seems a thing of ancient times

the romance and the desire seems seems so hard to find

swallowing a large pill thats stuck in my throat,

when you leave me for your friends and out the door you  go

feeling that they are taking what i alone should possess

and getting whats left over to my dismay and distress

Wondering if its worth sacrificing you, my jewel, in this game

allowing unclean spirits and energy to bring us to shame

 its blocking all the blessings and stripping us apart

security is absent, no peace in my heart

Yet i patiently wait and pray to Yahwah Adonay

that he give you the love you had  for me from yesterday

that you want to touch me, kiss me and snuggle in my arms

and give your innermost soul to me above and beyond

That we can be one and whole in the Truth

and that the anointing i have will be manifest in you

that we can be a team to teach a message of hope

and be an example of what it means to equally yoked

that the world could see us and want to be like us

and see the fullness of our culture in honor of Yahwah

that we can be prosperous and shine and be fulfilled

and do as we are supposed to do in Yahwahs holy will

That i can be a man of Yahwah and you be the manifest Ruwah Qadesh

that i can be a high priest messiah with you as my High Priestess

that we can lead the sheep that is placed in our hands

and take them back to Eden Land

That we can stand and work as a team of one

and make love come alive until you produce my chosen Son

like abraham and sarah, Rebekah and Yitzkak

we will recieve the promise and live just like that

that divorce will never be heard on our lips

that satan will never cause our relationship to slip

that health and happiness be our fortune and fame

that all of our Works together glorify Yahwahs name

That we can be reshaped and return unto and cleave

and live exactly like Yahwah originally intended for Adam and Eve

that all our dreams and hopes do come true

because you will love me even more than i love you

when i think of these things of my love my dear

sometimes it just causes me to have a few tears

i wipe my eyes and the tears are sweet

sweeter than the woman who washed Yeshua's feet

its like seeing Chockimah impregnated by Yahwah

the loving kindess that they have, anointed in honer

as they take each others hands all things come alive

never letting go, and letting nothing created die

smiling in his face each and every day

thats what i want for me and you as i pray

So i wait hoping that it finally all come true

where perfection is perfected between me and you

so as you read this poem, know from Yahwah above

that you will always be my Ruwah Qodesh and my manifest love

By Dr. Shalomim Halahawi