Been sober 23 years. Now, if I could quit drinking, why can't I stop smoking?
Addictions are notoriously strong...but am I stronger? Keep me in your prayers.
I hear them, the screams of those who visited that big-assed nicotine whore who lives in the joy of a smoke (and who were never seen again), warning me to stay away from those cigarettes, those damned cigarettes which gladly take me to a suffocating hell even before I get there, gasping and coughing and crying out for one decent breath untainted by the poison I put there, while lighting another nail in my coffin, shortening my years with each cigarette lit, condemning myself because the addiction is stronger than I.
I know I shouldn't, but ...
I heard them, the screams of those who visited the last vestiges of an alcohol high in emptied bottles of beer (and who were never heard from again), warning me to stay away from the boozy drinks, those damned glasses of liquid sedative which gladly took me on the slippery slope to hell, gasping and moaning and crying out for the sickness to stop, swearing I wouldn't do this again, while paying homage to the Great White Throne, while forgetting what I had been doing, and wondering how I was still alive ... I was stronger than the addiction.
i never had any bad habits (;-}> except for poetry -- yeah okay, tobacco, women, oh yeah wine -- the absolute worst was coffee!
(seriously--cafine is addicctive and when on needs a cup of STRONG coffe in orer to go tosllep every nifgt...
some i kicked some kicked me
if you do have a lapse don't cry "failure" just start again
go for it kj
john+
Reviewed by Joseph* OneLight*® (Reader)
Reviewed on November 30, 2005
When the time is right, the time is right and my prayers are with you Karla.
Karla to quit smoking is not a difficult task. I smoke for many years but at last resorted to quit it in 1993. Since then I have been encouraging friends to quit the habit by promising them a present if they didn't smoke for four consecutive weeks. So far only three of the twenty three friends (one female) won the present. Be the fourth my dear sister and expect a Somali cultural item as a present. We are all with you in prayers.
Your brother Abdi-Noor
A habbit hard to overcome...but thank God I did stop smoking almost 15 years ago!! Never had a dring problem...only one drinker is more than enough to handle :(!!
My mom quit once for more than 3 weeks. Even the store was pulling for her, she broke down and tried to buy a pack but the credit card machine wouldn't work and she had no cash.
Alas, this was over a year ago and she did start lighting up again. Now tries to quit everyday.
Sorry but I never put on cigarette in my mouth so I can't really empathize myself.
good write about a bad topic, I was also a heavy smoker (2 large Cdn packs a day) and after about twenty tries I have now been off of them for about 6 years. Not easy but can be done...good luck
Your poem posted is a cry for help. Here's mine: After only ten years - in my Forties - I qave myself a SHOCK treatment that worked. Friends had let me know how often my breath smelled like an ashtray, and my dear wife endured it until she attended the SECOND funeral of two of my siblings- from smoking. She wrote a poem in which she was at that third funeral. All of this only prepared me for what I had to do. At the suggestion of a young lady cleaning my teeth, I called a medical doctor friend at a nearby teaching univesity, asking him to show me the blackened lungs from a long-time smoking cadaver. His only reply was, "Certainly, you want to eat lunch before or after? On the appointed day I saw my potential death,preserved. Without lunch, I walked for two hours with guilt and one smoke after another as my companions. That evening at five minutes into the 9:00 PM TV movie, I lit my last cigarette! My life and marriage have been long and rewarding since that decision. Stay away from smokers or situations that tempt you to smoke again. To all who want you to fail, reply, "I'm determined to outlive you and the other crapheads who want to put me down!" (If this sounds like a pious sermon, I don't apologize. - Your Good Friend, Bill Broome
Karla, bottom line we can only kick a habit when we want to. No one or thing can make you not even God will force you to stop, it has to come from within your own will. As it did with drink! I know I felt resentful didn't want to quit even afte having a heart attack. When I made the decision, did it in one day never smoked another cigaret. I'll pray you realize one day it's for the best, and want to do it.
Great write!
Love,
Eileen
Reviewed by Jerry Bolton (Reader)
Reviewed on November 29, 2005
When Dottering Dottie (said lovingly) and I quit smoking we quit drinking the same day. No way I could drink and not smoke. You'll find that place inside of yourself and will quit someday. Besides, not everybody who smokes gets empheysema.
I know it is hard for you; it is hard for anyone who is addicted to cigarettes OR alcohol. But it CAN be done; just put your trust and hope in the Lord and ask Him to deliver you from this. I will be praying extra hard for you; you capture the stronghold of addiction and frustration perfectly in this hardhitting, sobering write! All the best to you, dear! Excellent job; take a bow!!
(((HUGS))) and much love, your twin, Karen Lynn. :(
A Habit should only be a thing a Nun wears. Make a Nun happy today.
Kick the Habit! Smoke the pipe organ instead! Such a glorious, heavenly sound compared to an aggravating cough! Kicked butts, Karla!
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i never had any bad habits (;-}> except for poetry -- yeah okay, tobacco, women, oh yeah wine -- the absolute worst was coffee!
(seriously--cafine is addicctive and when on needs a cup of STRONG coffe in orer to go tosllep every nifgt...
some i kicked some kicked me
if you do have a lapse don't cry "failure" just start again
go for it kj
john+
Love & Light,
Joseph
Your brother Abdi-Noor
Love Tinka
Alas, this was over a year ago and she did start lighting up again. Now tries to quit everyday.
Sorry but I never put on cigarette in my mouth so I can't really empathize myself.
Felix
Find UR Self Hobby To PRE-OCCUPY YOUR MIND....
TRASK
THEN: U WILL HAVE SUM 2 DO With UR Hands(Hobby),i.e. Not Think About Smoke Or Smoking Your Brain...
Great write!
Love,
Eileen
I know it is hard for you; it is hard for anyone who is addicted to cigarettes OR alcohol. But it CAN be done; just put your trust and hope in the Lord and ask Him to deliver you from this. I will be praying extra hard for you; you capture the stronghold of addiction and frustration perfectly in this hardhitting, sobering write! All the best to you, dear! Excellent job; take a bow!!
(((HUGS))) and much love, your twin, Karen Lynn. :(
Kick the Habit! Smoke the pipe organ instead! Such a glorious, heavenly sound compared to an aggravating cough! Kicked butts, Karla!
Sage