Dear Erin: I can relate to your poem--big things are little,little things big until they become heavy to put to work overtime your mental machinery-illicit feeling emotions -a spiraling cycle-life stays still but for the mental machinery put to work which somehow, though thoughtfull and accurate and accrueing wisdoms,is inapplicable to produce change as if your problems beyond reach-we only have so much living time for something very transient and surmountable to occupy it in any endureing manner. Must be some big potatoe in a line for bright guys(i.e. whose bright idea was that) instead of good guys or visa versa. Is a depressing situation that can grow to such propotions to require a needle threader and magnifier glass larger than a state(after the space telescope failed some one on Jonny Carson claimed it could still find the license tag of a speeding car on the jersey Turnpike.)
. a depressing situation with a potential to cause a greater harm if one does not know where to stop when he picks his/her life apart in search of the elements of his unhappyness. Sometimes problems with no definition that can blow in and out with the wind.
People should be kinder to themselves-they can only gain from doing so, instead of putting the square peg into the round hole, left with neither a round or square and the same unconquered problems that initiated their personal searches.
... they should focus their energies more constructively on things that are indulgeing to self serving...what ever their appetities -what ever they have refused themselves(gouret foods, expensive pasties to orgies).
marvin