Within my mind is a fiery blaze
beneath the depth that none can see
what is really within me..
to far hidden behind a haze for anyone to see..
I must try to be happy with my world..
I try to avoid how I really feel..
I know I am losing my strength
and my power...
but what choice do I have..
To end it.. would make me a coward..
My soul is filled with scars..I face..
The scars from a past
that cannot be erased..
Everyday. my soul feels hollow..
As if I die each night ..
then must wake tomorrow..
I see the blackness..
yet I feel the light..
So I try to reach through my mind.
to make things right...
But my heart is cold and heavy..
I want to run.. to fly away..
but my mind knows it has to stay..
I do not wish to remember the past..
I will not grow with hate..
I will fight..I will debate..
I will leave it all up to fate..
Through life I stumble..
Through life.. I fight..
I duel with myself..
day and night..
I just do not want this blaze.
raging in my brain..
I only want love.. memories.
without the pain..

ERICA