I don't care
that she abused me..
Abandoned me..
Broke my heart.. split my soul..
I remember all to well
every cruel thing
that was done and said..
My heart is speckled with tiny scars
for every single time
she wished me dead
But ..
She is still my mother..
I could never be near her..
or trust her like a daughter again..
But if she ever needs me..
I will go to her
as I would any friend
Because
She is still my Mother..
I know you think me crazy..
that I would pick up and go..
But remember
she gave me life..
She helped form this soul..
I know the evil within her
is all that you see..
But remember
without this evil woman
I would not be..
I still have many scars.
from the beatings that she gave..
But I cannot let myself..
take that hatred to the grave..
So she may not be perfect..
she is often very cruel.
but she was the one
that brought me
into this world.
And there is still
a little part of me
who wishes I could be
her loved little girl..
A little part that
will forever love her..
Because after all..
She is still my Mother.
I Was Abused Child__ May My Father Rot In His
Own Holy Hell__ May My Mother Find Peace,i.e.
in The End She Stepped In Front Me & He Beat Her Too!
But,On My 18th Birthday,am, He Came After Me__
One Karate Chop To His Nose,Broken/Bleeding As He Slide Down Kitchen Wall,Out like Light__He was 6'2",250lbs,Iwas 5'8"149 lbs__
Like Slaying Goliath__As For Both Of Them, I Feel No Mercy, I Feel No Pain,i.e. Hell of Way To get His RESPECT!
I Do Not Look Back...
TRASK
Reviewed by Nicole Davis Vergara (Reader)
Reviewed on December 30, 2002
Erica this saddens me so to think of anyones mother causing them such pain, and when I see and hear of things such as those you have written it makes me wish I could adopt all the children of the world! Beautiful and so heartfelt! :O)
~Nikki~
This is wonderful. It's very sweet. A sweetness not often brought about. One suggestion: "I know you think me [I'm] crazy". It seems it would flow better, but if it suits you, that's totally fine ;)
I really loved this one Erica. It showed your best side. It showed what a beautiful and colourful person you are and will be. Something, I am sure, most every family has experienced in some way or form, the abuse of another, whether it be them or a fellow member, we can all sympathise, but this is just beautiful.
i'm glad you still have your mother...mine died 12 years ago...even through the pain she inflicted on me (verbal and physical abuse), i still miss her...the diabetes changed her whole personality...she could be nice, but she could be mean, too...i still miss her *snif* BEAUTIFUL, heartfelt write...share this with her, i'm sure she'd be proud! (((HUGS))) and may this new year bring reconciliation...love, karla. :)
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I am sorry you suffered abuse...
I write often of child and spouse
abuse. I fight strongly against
it.
I Was Abused Child__ May My Father Rot In His
Own Holy Hell__ May My Mother Find Peace,i.e.
in The End She Stepped In Front Me & He Beat Her Too!
But,On My 18th Birthday,am, He Came After Me__
One Karate Chop To His Nose,Broken/Bleeding As He Slide Down Kitchen Wall,Out like Light__He was 6'2",250lbs,Iwas 5'8"149 lbs__
Like Slaying Goliath__As For Both Of Them, I Feel No Mercy, I Feel No Pain,i.e. Hell of Way To get His RESPECT!
I Do Not Look Back...
TRASK
~Nikki~
I really loved this one Erica. It showed your best side. It showed what a beautiful and colourful person you are and will be. Something, I am sure, most every family has experienced in some way or form, the abuse of another, whether it be them or a fellow member, we can all sympathise, but this is just beautiful.
Warm Love and Happy New Year,
*- Brittany -*