Sitting
Thinking
Coffee drinking
Shedding my winter overcoat of resistance
Knowing I don’t need to keep my distance
He never told me
I wasn’t good enough
I decided that for myself
We’re not really over
I’m just pissed I’m not the only one
I do not like to compete
Thinking I could never win
Is always my defeat
And I know the other woman
She is beautiful, poetic and strong like me
So on this equally beautiful warm sunny day
I declare war
On my insecurities
Yes, my inner strength is storming
I see the greatness of my life
My love and the compassion that I give
So to the eloquent poet brat
Whose words lashed me like a whip
You walked right into a trap
To tell me what I wanted to hear
That no one, not anyone could
Ever want to hold me dear
I want to thank you as somehow
That set my mind into action
Made me realize
Time to stop this constant over reaction
Or perhaps I’m once again
Just lying to myself
In any case I truly hope this revelation
Isn’t causing too much of a sensation,
Cause honey I’m on prisoner of my self-derision
Breakout the champagne
And set myself free
With much glee
Mission