I never won at musical chairs,
Though I really tried as one who cares.
My two older brothers left me behind;
They broke into old houses with their own kind.
I reluctantly inherited their tedious paper route,
Delivering newspapers every day and Sunday to boot.
My two sisters excelled in doing their chores;
I groaned my way thru waxing hard wood floors.
The neighborhood kids had first ride in uncle’s new car;
The sense of abandonment I felt became a lasting scar.
While others frolicked through fallen autumn leaves,
I was buried alive with only my nose exposed to breathe.
In winter, building a snowman turned into rollicking fun,
I ended up pelted with snowballs under the cold winter sun.
While others held hands and danced around the May pole,
I got blindfolded and stuffed unknowingly into a barrel roll.
When my older brothers joined the military and left the fold
I was left behind empty-handed without their hand to hold
In hide and seek on rainy days, I wasn’t found and never quit,
When we played tag with our visiting cousins, I was never it.
The trials and tribulations of a childhood soul never give way;
They quietly take up residence in the soul and never go away.
Quite a confession. I wouldn't have known it from your career and travels. I think you are okay with it now because you certainly are accomplished in a good way.
My twin brother was always my shadow until I was paralyzed at 20 and he had to go out on his own. When I returned to our university things had changed greatly and he was truly moving ahead without me on his own.
the kings of olden times were used to nickname themselves as 'an orphan' or 'the abandoned' or 'rejected by all'. . . to be then the greatest men of all times and nations. A paradox? nothing of the kind. Just the other side of the same entity called 'personality.' Interesting reading. Cheers, alex
Growing up the youngest and female with three older brothers was not a "cake walk" either especially in a neighborhood of boys. I had to "hold my own" many times! LOL!!!
Childhood! You have to go through it to become who you are. Mine wasn't too good either. Small town. Whispers about ("Sssh! Adopted) Talk about lasting scars . . .
Your poem touched me because I can really identify with your story. My childhood experience was much the same. Though I was the oldest of four kids I always felt like the middle child with Mom and Dad on one side and my three brothers on the other. I was the odd one out both at home and outside of it, the strange one, the one no one wanted around. It left scars that I still struggle with everyday.
A further collection of poems, many from years in the Middle East, but also the California San Francisco and Central Coast areas (Santa Cruz, Carmel, Big Sur, Berkeley, etc.).
My book of poetry is being redone by me, I have a beautiful cover designed and the book will have a few more than 200 poems in it. I am going to have it printed on demand here in Canada. When it is done I will let you know when it is done and if anyo
My twin brother was always my shadow until I was paralyzed at 20 and he had to go out on his own. When I returned to our university things had changed greatly and he was truly moving ahead without me on his own.
Ron
Love ya!
Jane