Beautiful Gem-Exquisite Jewel

Maybe I'm not worthy of that beautiful gem that stands so eloquently

On the back row of the other mundane jewels that the owner of this

Store, so proudly displays.

For years I've admired it, I've desired it, And then I would dismiss it

And others like it

To file it away in the frivolity section of my mind.

I've always had one, though not like that one.

The one that is mine, serves its perfunctory purpose,

Though it has no shine nor sparkle,

And still carries the scars and bruises of the passing of time

And, yes, some neglect, and mistreatment that naturally

Happens with living life.

Today, I looked at mine, and I knew the time had come to remove it.

I knew that today would be the day that mine would be disposed of

Somewhere down the road, in a junk heap or garbage dump.

There was a thread of sorrow, I have to admit, as I stood there and stared at it,

For after all, I had become accustomed to it being there.

The little shred of a teardrop that I may have let escape from

The bottle of droplets that hide somewhere behind my "baby blues",

Stopped suddenly, when I began to think, that this may also be the day

For something else. This may be the day my dream would come true .

The day that I would go to that proud shop owner, and point

My finger toward the epitome of elegance that stood on the back row

And declare, "This is the one I want!"

"This one is mine!" My heart leapt with joy even in the midst of tragedy.

Oh! my husband will delight in buying it for me. I know he will, for you see.

Often I have told him of my dream.

To be the proud owner of the (what I refer to as) The Cadillac of All Refrigerators.

My very own Side by Side, with slots for two kinds of ice, and water too.

And now a few days later, I see.  He didn't share the same joy with me.

I guess it was never meant to be. Not in my reality. Only in my dreams, I guess.

Not even an icemaker, do I possess. The little refrigerator keeps his Pepsi good and cold

It keep his ice cream solidly froze. The price was economy but it is brand new.

I am so very happy for my husband and his Little Roper. But still I have to wonder

What will I do?  Keep on dreaming? Or should I give it up? I guess a little small fridge is

Perfect though.

Just the right size for two.

© 2005 Leah