Eyes From ICU
by J. Allen Wilson — Read all 1,629 poems by J. Allen Wilson
day five in the ICU ward where my Leah clings to one of the most precious gifts that God ever gave man and that is life. 23 out of 24 hours each day I call this home leaving only long enough to go home and change clothes and feed the cat. The remaining hours are filled with meeting of doctors pastors and shrinks. After 9pm I along with other grieving souls are banished to the waiting room for an all night stay on a hard chair or cold floor. I know not sleep for it is a stranger and comfort has stolen away in the night.
I shudder through the night alone as my dear Leah clings to each breath. I have long since sent home the remainder of family as I see to no purpose that their lives be stolen from one another in the great game of waiting. Man offers no hope and have on many occasions suggested the end. However as there is my love; there is hope and my hope remains in that this by God shall be overcome. The sadness for me is all consuming yet as I look around in the waiting room where a sprinkling of grieving families remain; I see a common bond in the eyes of strangers; I see the unfathomable sadness in their eyes that I too see in mine.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
Eyes From ICU
I look into their eyes and I see the emptiness of a defeated soul; I see myself.
Eyes turned dark rimmed in a tear driven bloodshot red.
I see a middle aged man and woman sobbing as they cry themselves to sleep.
I see wounds of broken hearts scored by pain too deep.
I long to lend comfort to these most sorrowful souls.
Yet when I searched for my comfort to give, I found it had gone.
One AM and most left here are now asleep.
I walk outside and find the window to my wife's room...
I kneel in the warm darkness beneath the full moon.
I pray; I weep; I ask God to meet our every need.
J. Allen Wilson 8/16/08
Releasing you and Leah to the Lord in prayer.
God Bless
Lena J.
Psalm 55:22 "Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved."
Matthew 24:13 "He that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved."
Micah 7:8 "When I sit in darkness, the Lord shall be a light unto me."
Psalm 46:1 "God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble."
Allen, I hope these verses will bring some sort of peace to your mind. I'm still looking & praying for a miracle. Please try to eat & drink something so that you won't become dehydrated and sick. My mind & heart is with the two of you and my prayers are mumbled throughout the day. If there is anything I can do, let me know. Allen, let God's light warm your soul and feed your body, giving you strength to take those needed steps forwarded each day. May God's richest blessing be with you both.
Louisa
"Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Where can I flee from Your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, You are there; if I make my bed in the depths, You are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there Your hand will guide me, Your right hand will hold me fast. ..... even the darkness will not be dark to You; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to You."
Keep looking to Him, even through your tears; He will light your path and guide you.
Love, Connie
(((HUGS))) and much love, your friend in Tx., Karen Lynn. :( >tears! <
I send peace, love, and white soothing energy to both of you,
Amber "V"
Huge, Huge HUGS to you and Leah, I feel your every emotion, I pray to God to Give you and the others comfort, Take care Valerie
Allen, do take care of yourself too!!!
Sandie May :o(
Even though my thoughts are mostly dark blue,
I remain vigilant for a happy ending,
To this rough time for you both too...Ed
I know the fear, the uncertainty, the not knowing what the next hour will bring - spent a week on those hard chairs, when Karen was in ICU. Please stay strong, know you are being lifted in prayer, not only by Karen and I, but by our church, many of our friends ... we love you, if you need anything, please let me know!
(((((HUGS))))) and love, Karla.