i got an E-mail saying that
you were dying
by the time i read it
you had
and i felt
nothing
you weren't my friend
you were never there for me
you were mean
physically and emotionally you
were abusive
to me
to everyone
yet i will pray for you
pray that you have been shown
your life
like watching a movie
hoping
you are sorry now
for all the things you never
were sorry for before
i can forgive
but i will never forget
i'm sorry too
sorry i couldn't even be sad
sorry i can't spare one tear
all were spent many years ago
i've none left to give you
dad....
I know the pain and abuse, God, you must feel 'weird'. My abusing Dad died last year and it was a relief, strange and believe it or not I felt some guilt. Trust me, the ones that cross over do have a review of their life and he will see his as well. I'll pray that he comes to terms, forgives himself as he sees the pain he injected into you. I am praying for the entire family.
BTW, you look damn good girl, woo-hoo. ;) Kudos on all of your accomplishments, you sure as hell deserve them and more. Love to you my friend.
I feel the pain in this one more than I'm willing to admit. My father has not been well for some time, and I'm torn, wondering what I'll feel when his time comes. ('Course, I already know what I feel; I suppose it's more the wonderment of how I'll deal with those emotions.)
A brutally honest write, so well expressed, Caryn. I'll pray that your pain is eased somehow.
Powerful and heart-breaking, I understand all to well, I hope you heal from the damage he caused,
Reindeer
Reviewed by Ron (sketchman) Axelson (Reader)
Reviewed on May 31, 2004
Caryn, I wouldn't be sorry you couldn't feel sad for the person. You probably did all you could when the person was living. I've been through the same thing more than once. Some people just don't know how to love or have compassion for other human beings.
Great to read you stranger, Come and see me some time? hee, hee, my den.
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I know the pain and abuse, God, you must feel 'weird'. My abusing Dad died last year and it was a relief, strange and believe it or not I felt some guilt. Trust me, the ones that cross over do have a review of their life and he will see his as well. I'll pray that he comes to terms, forgives himself as he sees the pain he injected into you. I am praying for the entire family.
BTW, you look damn good girl, woo-hoo. ;) Kudos on all of your accomplishments, you sure as hell deserve them and more. Love to you my friend.
Love & Peace, Janet xoxoxo
It's hard, hurts so much sometimes, I've written a few times about this thing too, it helps, and thats what i love about writing.
Take care
Ch'erie
This is so powerful have missed your posts....
Excellent come back poem....
Peg
Thank You for sharing.
Love, Bonnie
A brutally honest write, so well expressed, Caryn. I'll pray that your pain is eased somehow.
Hugs,
Tami
Reindeer
Great to read you stranger, Come and see me some time? hee, hee, my den.