Dead Ends,

Am I facing a dead end?

I am if I go the route I’ve recently penned,

It’s a route of self-destruction as sure as if I was to send,

The idea to the negative side from which I could bend,

 AND THEN,

To lend to the self,

That which I should never tend,

The means to that end that I should not even think about, ahem,

Because I know that this plan that I have of late did amend,

Can only in the extreme end, send me to the pit to descend,

And while I fully realize this, I still seem to find it hard to resend,

This thing that is so much more so reprehensible than one can imagine,

While also realizing this thing could see me this first time in 25 years apprehended………….

AND TO DEFEND,

My actions to others would be to waste of my abilities to fend,

Don’t mean here to do any thing to condescend,

But really, how can anyone help me, unless they are ready to transcend,

Time & stay with me to ever-loving bitter END…?

                                                                                    (ed)