Now I understand

Dad, only now do I realise
After a decade has passed
Hours ago, you came to my mind
I remembered our days together
Truly, you were special
Special in your own ways

An accident took your speech away
You also lost your hearing ability
Being deaf-mute, you persevered
Not everyone would ask for

We didn't communicate much
The sign language we used
Limited but messages were conveyed

I remembered the day you protected me,
I misbehaved, wanting something
I didn't understand then
Misbehaviour sucks but you stood by me
And I'm still puzzled

Tapping rubber all your life
You were still a miracle, to me
Cycling a distance every morning
Just to sustain your life, your world
I don't blame you
I've come to appreciate
The life you led

I remember you much in my reflections
You had, without fail, helped me
In the simple things I took for granted
You sat beside me with my books
Wrapping them together with me
I'm touched, but not then
I'm truly sorry
I've failed in my capacity

I forgot that hugs mean much
But I didn't share that with you
I could and should have given you some
I regret that I missed the opportunities
I was too young and naive
In return, I'll not forget to hug mine
Your grandsons and granddaughter
As you would

Till we meet again
God bless you!