She could see it in my eyes
that my heart was still
and knew that
without wine
these faint whispers
that curl into you ear
don't come easy
but I am screaming now
into a brick wall
so only I
can hear these
words break
that fall from my mouth
pushed over the edge
by my aching stomach
into an essence
of forgive me not
nights alone
don't forget
it was you
who saw it -
the ripping of words
out of ears
from years
of laying
my hands down
over the pillow
into the eyes
of distant memory
lying face up
in shallow graves
of the past
I want to twist
with the pain
relive
as hard as it hurts
I want to thank you
for taking me there.