All my life, I learned to expect life to be a painful journey, be a survivor and embrace the pain

As I sit and paint the mask of sorrow upon my face,
I watch the dove of happiness soar upward and then vanish without a trace.
I wish to run and hideaway,
Let myself be swallowed by deep shadows of gray.
Make my home amid the shadows and avoid the light,
My head and heart aches and I take comfort in my plight.
From my childhood, I place my hands over my eyes,
Now I am invisible and no one can see through my disguise.
I embrace me and rock to and fro,
I softly sing the Hush-a-by lullaby from long ago.
With nowhere to run to and nowhere to hide,
I open my arms to welcome me inside.
Whispering," No! No! It wasn't meant to be",
" I will truly be all right, cause I will always have me!"
Me will love me and me will care,
When others disappoint and walk away, I will always be there.
Foolish hope caused me to reach out,
Causing me to forget life's rules, what life really is about.
Life embraces looks, images, numbers and labels,
Humans can't see beyond these truths, they are not able.
No one really cares about the loving heart within,
They are blind and can't see beyond the outward skin,
Eyes demand perfection in order to blend.
So I wave the flag of surrender, pack it in, give up the fight,
Because I will never be, or never was someone's just right.

Music: Runaway