NIGHTMARE

In this dream my daddy was always throwing parties in his large house, but he was nowhere to be found.

I thought about mommy, but it seems to me that in my dream mommy was always going somewhere away from my daddy, and she would go everywhere so often that I would feel sad that I did not know where she is all the time.

In our large house there would be parties almost every weekend,
and many people were invited; even some whom I don’t know.
They all came to the parties just so they could drink and have fun.

In this dream there was a party last night, and I woke up in the morning, and was walking along the hallway that seemed more like a highway.

I tried looking for daddy, but I could not find him. I look down into the room one floor below me and saw there was a family of people there. I thought they must have got too drunk to drive home last night and my daddy had just put them there to let them sleep; as this was what daddy would normally do to drunken guests in my dream.

As I was walking by, the man was beginning to wake up. He first looked at himself and then at the others; and then he looked around the room. He then realized that he was drunk last night and now he was not in his own house. Then one by one, all the other family members began to wake up as well. They looked at each other, and then realized too that they were not in their own house.

I tried looking for my mommy and daddy, but it seems to me in my dream that daddy would only throw parties and invite people to come to the parties, but then he would never be there when the parties end; nor would he be there the following day to see them off.

In my dream I so wish to see my daddy when I woke up in the morning. I knew my mommy would not be there because in my dream she seemed to have been gone for quite some time already, and no one knows where she is now.

Suddenly, I felt an immense emptiness and began to cry. I held a gavel in my hand while I stood on the higher ground. I hit the gavel on the podium like what a judge or a speaker would do, and I said, “I declare I’m an orphan now”.

Tears just rolled down my cheeks, and people around me came forward to hug and comfort me. I felt my emotion rising, as I woke up I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes.

I’m saddened by this dream.
I felt this dream is a nightmare.

© Sandie Angel, 9/15/2014