Today I Cried

the last time was so long ago i cant remember Y i thought it was impossible that my tear ducts had somehow dried but today i cried i cried because it feels like i live in a world filled with ignorance and guided by fate i cried because at 15 my mother was the victim of rape accosted by my father further trodden upon by her beautiful ebony complexion and neglect i cried because i was taught never to question my elders but it was my elders questions that lead me to suffer my mothers fate and my light complexion given to me by my father that made me the victim of her hate i cried because so many young women dont have a clue of all the wonderful things they could do in spite of the fact that they werent shown at home a close to adequate way to grow and bloom and those who were are so caught up being "her" that they forget how to fly how to look to the sky as being their only limitation in life and often die without receiving the glorification for being a being beautiful inside and out   they deserve i cried because as a young girl i married a young boy way before i was mature enough to experience the joy of being in love and loving someone i cried because 14 years later when we filed for divorce my children didnt have a voice in the situation and became statistics Then i cried because today i still struggle with my soul mate all of them one after another choosing to make me suffer for their inadequacies loving me with neglect doting on me with well planned lies courting me with their own low self esteem forcing me to live in a dream of being a satisfied lover while loving her i cried long and hard till my sides ached under the pressure of my sobs till my lips cracked from absorbing so many tears till my cries made my head throb and plead for me to disown my ears even now as i sit on my knees in prayer for a better tomorrow i am still crying ©2008 The1Essence; Memoirs of an Ordinary Woman Volume II Coming on 2/14/09 All Rights Reserved Exclusively by The1Essence