Parading stars silenced by the night lit sky, surpass my youth
Eye opening fears that I'm touchable whether it be rain or shine
There's no bullet that won't crush, brush, cash me out
So I'm left in my own misery of losing 
The lady
The family
The future
The child unknown to me still
For every error made apart of my adolescence is being charged
The tears are gathering up to release
This is where my life changes forever in silence, in grief, in memory
With no real words a bullet showed that life can slip away just like that
With no second chances, or rewards
Just a grave
With my letters E-A-R-L imprinted
So I say to God and those nearest to me "I don't wanna die."
What I did at BR was selfish and explain-able, and if my head was right I'd be a Marine, but God last night showed reality. I would. Be dead right now. The ipod is replaceable, my life isn't and I'm thankful that he's giving me another chance to complete my journey and fulfill my prophecy.
I need to change spiritually and develop a true belief and stop joking around so much because by me doing that I'm just stalling while the days are passing me in circles.
This was my lesson to get off my ass and do something
I do fear something. I fear death.