i went over the script
a thousand times
the scene and theme
are laid out in my mind
but the actor isn't ready
plagued with hesitations
drowning in indecisiveness
leading to more uncertainties
ooh the gruesomeness
of bad acting
stop and breathe!
order is- heaven's first rule
resurrect the aim
embrace your role
in this play
always remember,
you are the actor, my dear
so act the world
you have in your heart
and boldly live from it
fall madly in love
to that state of mind
that you'll never leave
until you have achieved
the feeling of its normalcy
as the actor and state
attain their harmony
started only from assumptions
grew faith, courage, trust,
and blissful expectations
raised by experience
and a myriad of
trial and errors
acquiring the poise
of the great intelligence
finally letting Judas die
one's conception
of the previous self
welcoming Christ-
the new man
all glorious and victorious
in his stance.
While I can act a role (like being a professor in a classroom) very well with compassion and humor and have worn several hats throughout my career, I have always feared going on stage in an acting role for one reason: I do not memorize anything except for a few old songs from my youth and then, not all of the lyrics.
I have a process brain. I look up all information because I don't store it in my head memorized, taking up space and interfering with my thought processes. So I would have a very hard time memorizing my lines and then getting them right unless the role was ad lib or impromptu and that I would be fine because I wouldn't have to worry about getting the lines exactly the way Shakespeare or whoever wrote them wanted me to act.
But your poem had a purpose that was different. I would never embrace the role of memorizing dogma or following without question what others have written.
Ron