My Mother and Sister's legacy for me was a childhood of misery and pain. Mother is dead but my sister has taken up the gauntlet and still tries to inflict a daily dose of pain.
The legecy handed to me from my mother and sister, festering rage and festering pain,
Memories of their cruelty is an endless carousel ride, that drives me insane.
My never ending sorrow haunts each night, robbing me of sleep,
Knowing I will never be free, makes me weep.
Cruelty gift-wrapped as love, was handed to this so-called ungrateful child,
A child they lamed, forcing me to crawl each of life's miles.
Affection and smiles were ordered, to be delivered on demand,
Rendered with a tug on the marionette's strings, by the Puppet Master's hand.
The puppet was forced to obey every single command,
I was never allowed to be real or take a stand.
They broke my wings, then demanded me to take to the sky,
Damaged and wounded, I crashed and burned, was never able to fly.
They rendered me ill-equipped and totally unprepared for life,
Now I daily reap the harvest of pain, sorrow and strife.
While my remaining tormentor sleeps soundly in her bed,
Covered with the quilt of entitlement and self-righteousness with denial and self-justification pillowing her head.
She will never acknowledge the pain she's caused me or admit the wrong she's done,
For in her demented mine, she is Sister Christen, the chosen one!
MUSIC: Psycho
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Reviews of "Riding The Carousel Of Pain"
Reviewed by D. Vegas (Reader)
Reviewed on July 27, 2009
SC, I'm sorry for your pain.....people who abuse were also abused and it will continue until that abuser seeks the help of a therapist. I know,I too was abused.
Always,
Deborah
Reviewed by Shea Clarke (Reader)
Reviewed on January 18, 2009
I love you Auntie. It's pathetic how badly our family sucks.
Get yourself some Holy Water, splash some on your head and say, "Get Theee behind me Yee demons of my mind".
Hope it works. I am still having nightmares over one such as that, except She pledged her eternal love for me before God and witnesses. How easily they forget. I feel your pain, Sissy.
Walt
Reviewed by Ron (sketchman) Axelson (Reader)
Reviewed on January 5, 2009
She must be a demon..
Love ya bunches baby love...get away from that demon in 2009
Ronny
Heartwrenching write my friend. Why do we hurt the ones we love the most? Maybe because we know we can. Thank you for this terrific eye-opening write SC. Love and hugs dear friend. Bonnie
SC,
I am so sorry you are in this postion. Is there any way out for you? Pray and pray and pray, and I will pray for you that this abuse will END. You deserve better!
I don't know why family members are the most able to inflic the hardest blows and leave the deepest scars for the heck of it upon someone not expecting it but needing a small quantity of love instead.
SC no one has the right to abuse another espically a child who is scarred for life. You are a good person and there's a family out there waiting to have you as part of there's. I know it is hard to forgive and forget for that can never happen when there is so much hurt and pain. I believe you best erase them without any harsh words or wishes and move on with your life. You are too kind of a person to play their game and your sister was created by your Mother. Such a shame that even she doesn't see who she has become. Take care SC your wings are there for no one can remove the wings of an Angel.
Newfie Hugs are on the way, Rose
Reviewed by 000 000 (Reader)
Reviewed on January 5, 2009
So uniquely worded. Well Dear Comfort, your wings will mend and your spirit will soar as you heal in Gods light. Each day love and the beauty in your mind will bring you peace and comfort...as your writings clear out your heart! Tell the tormentors you forgive them, will pray for them, smile at em...then walk away! You will confuse them and they might look at themselves and maybe realize their actions!
Sunshine to you, CarolHawks
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After a long awaited weekend visitation caused by false allegations of sexual abuse, Glen got to see his children for the first time in over two months. He promised them that they would never be apart again and then they disappeared.
Always,
Deborah
hugs
Kathy
Hope it works. I am still having nightmares over one such as that, except She pledged her eternal love for me before God and witnesses. How easily they forget. I feel your pain, Sissy.
Walt
Love ya bunches baby love...get away from that demon in 2009
Ronny
I am so sorry you are in this postion. Is there any way out for you? Pray and pray and pray, and I will pray for you that this abuse will END. You deserve better!
Blessings and love,
~Linda
(((HUGS))) and much love, your friend in Tx., Li'l Twister. :( >tears! <
See?? Even Li'l Tornadoes cry! :(
Georg
Newfie Hugs are on the way, Rose
Sunshine to you, CarolHawks