It feels like...bereavement
Silent tears and stifled sobs
as i leave the past behind
I muddle through the present
The future I've yet to find
who am I?
what did i become
And whom am I yet to be?
Once upon a time
I was secure and happy
with family
but now my days are worn
And i'm not so carefree
Since my life was torn
away from me
Time and circumstance
I could not prevent
I reacted with non-acceptance
with anger to vent
No longer was I
sweet, soft, angelic
and tolerant
but hell-bent
on creating chaos
wherever i went
Unrecognisable to
those who were near
I did not know the
face in the mirror
depicted fear
Change is inevitable
but it came too soon
Things i took for granted
were swept up
In a dark typhoon
Leaving me in a
state of shock
losing my religion
blaming God
Asking why
I could not cry
Yet feeling so choked
up inside i could die
And now the tears
are trickling through
Although the flood is
yet to come
To feel this release
would be great
To open the floodgates
And be free
Of the emotional chains
that are binding me
And preventing me from
living life fully.
(c) 11th april 2007 AJMB Williams
~andicat~
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Outstanding poem and message. Life can sometimes choke us but somehow we have to take a few extra chews and swallow real hard to force it down. Peace to You My Friend, Paul