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My Loss of Her Lingers
by Angels Are Near → (All Poetry by Angels Are Near)
Friday, January 1, 2021 Rated "PG13" by the Author.

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The Loss of my Momma 2020

Well, Momma it’s a New Year 2021 Yet you are not here I think of you all the time and No matter what I tell myself I Can’t rewind the time between us Can’t change the decisions that were made All I could ever do was PRAY After all, they were not mine to make I can’t take back my REGRET I can’t take back the SHAME I can’t take back the PAST And, I can’t reverse my TEARS I always wanted so much MORE for YOU Losing you was the hardest day Of my life….I knew I would fall apart The day you died…AND, surprisingly enough I didn’t…yet, now I am. I stood there at your Funeral as if it was all Okay, and spoke but, didn't say all I wanted to say...I should have spoken more about your life, your accomplishments, all the good you did for others, but, yet, I made it about me. I am so sorry Mom. All the while knowing the time would come I am Still falling apart into pieces Like a Patsy Cline song… I feel like I am coming undone then, I think others see me as "crazy" as they say, "she had a long life..." BLAH BLAH BLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You taught me so much than You ever knew…and, it’s hard to forgive The ones who don’t care Or show empathy for my loss. It’s just impossible…I know you get it. It was hard seeing you so Blue I just hope and pray that you know how much I will forever Love You. Love is Eternal and the bond between A Mother and Daughter last forever… I know you are my Guardian Angel and Jack Rose’s too. I am so sorry I couldn’t Be there MORE for you! Grief comes in waves and it’s your ONLY Grandson’s Birthday today… So, here I am crying because I miss YOU So much. Your Voice, Your Face, Your Laugh, Your comfort, Your everything..Your BEING. Somehow, I feel so alone in this cruel world Now that you are gone. And I don’t want to be. Momma, will you talk to God for me? I need answers to my Prayers. I don’t know how to stop missing You... and, I know I never will. Rest In Peace Momma! I promise I will get myself together and be everything you wanted me to be! After all, YOU Believed in ME!

Reviewed by La Belle Rouge Poetess Of The Heart

Reviewed on February 16, 2021

Such a big loss when our mama leaves. She'll always watch over you until you meet again. A well penned and honest poem.

Reviewed by Ronald Hull

Reviewed on January 21, 2021

I believe through this long poem you are trying to shed the sadness and guilt you feel over how you lost your mother, too soon. I hope it helped. There comes a time when we will stop grieving and move on.

My mother died on February 17 last year. It was a blessing, she was suffering so much at 95 with several ailments. I have had a great deal of difficulty traveling the thousand miles to where she was. The last time I was there was 2011. But up until about two years ago, she would call me every Monday at 4 PM and we would talk on her TTY. I recall her giggling at everything I said like a schoolgirl she was so happy talking to me. Fortunately, my sister lived nearby and took care of her right up until the end.

Ron

Reviewed by Budd Nelson

Reviewed on January 3, 2021

such a loss never truly ends, it just becomes more bareable

Reviewed by Sandie May Joyce (Sandie Angel)

Reviewed on January 1, 2021

Beautiful sentiments in this poem! Your mom is watching over you and she will no doubt be your guardian angel. The last two lines of the poem were EXCELLENT!

Sandie