well done, Steven......... sad, and recalls to mind my loss of my mother also. I wish I could say it gets easier, I wish I could. But life goes on, dear poet, and that's the way she'd want it. Beautifully sad poem
Joni

compassion to melancholy...knowing that it passes...as true as the sun rises each day

So sad, so terribly sad....always choose life!

peace, Carole

Fifty at last and alone with my past
Just one more book and then that will be all
Each moment brings me closer to release
The wind will teach this leaf to fly this fall
This beaten beating heart becalmed to peace <----------- STeve~! :( What the hell is this my friend- DArn-Damn- YOu doing it again-- Stop-have you EVER heard of SElf prophecy- Self Projection-??? well, it's Damn true- it happensssssss.. and we want you here and NEED you...STop - giving up inside of your heart... ONLY 50! Just the begining of some wonderful mememorable years, that won't appear if last we see or hear of you again-- and Let me tell you--- If, you say this is just a part of your LAST book, to just have it in there for a prayer or passenge- or whatever the hell you want it to be- Your allowing your mind to set the clock in motion~! When you feel something STRongly! YOu Vision it often~! You believe it Soundly!~ and you WRite it --- YOu speak it--- All out into the Universe- Do you know what happens my very good friend-( Maybe I should call you and talk and give you a piece of my heart/words cuz, I care and we need you and your boys/daughter does too)- but, to call- would it help.. YOur setting yourself UP- I know you know this and if you don't look into it, ASk around.. YOU can get pissy at me all you want and be made as hell and not come into my corner of the den anymore.. or write things you say out of anger, But- I speak and write my mind.. and right now, I am Angry-! at a friend everyone is trying to understand and know better, and most likely is through his OWN words and thoughts of his OWN heart and Soul- So, Please, I beg you... Don't let this be the last I hear from YOU!!!- I seriously dont' want to hurt you, but... I feel your hurting yourself.. and if you didn't wake tomorr... Dahh- Think about it, why - do you think that will happen... Not only- but, when your last BOOK is Through-Ended.. why- can't thier be a NeXT begining in your life.. Why not write of friends who have touched your life and soul... I can't write no more, my hand is shaking all over the place- I feel your mad at me for writing all this out, but I had to say what's on mY mind.. and in the air for the Universe to know that NOT only I but, so many of Us CAREEEEEEEEEEEE- So, skip a rock or two and walk with a friend- give noodles a bath and talk about your feelings, To get it all out... IN any way--- will bring some PEACE to you today- maybe to last through a longerrr eternity... Just -don't give UP! YOur strOnger than you give yourself credit for! I will share something Personal, *( now - that you got my blood b;oiling- Look, I can't freekin' type.. but, I am about to tell you some straight out honesty and others will know.. but, it's true and God knows it--- I would say around the year 1998- my EX and I of 19 yrs.. was arguing again, about this drinking and driving.. I was pissed and he went to work for his boss under the table *( I was mad enough he didn't work legally to have a history, but- it was his choice) Oh, and yes, you have a choice, but - giving up - must NOT feel right in your heart.. YOUr mom will be with you soon enough, and in your heart is where she is! but, back to what I want to say to you- and whoever - I was so pissed that I wanted to take my life.. *( now, I gave no thought to my daughters who were 11 and 12 or so, and I drove down to where he was to be working... cuz, he had been drinking and I started driving so freekin' fast.. I was infront of the street to go dowwwwn and I pushed my foot to the floor and I gunned it toward a tree, while screaminggggggggg through my lungs... Steve, I swear, some Angel or something, made me BRAke- cuz, the tree was infront of and the bosss' wife was outside.. I was scared, shakin and embarrased, to think I was as BAD as him (EX) cuz- he drank alot and left -couldn't stand- physically out of it and was just being selfish, what the hell was I doing??? I was being selfish too, then my girls appeared in my head as I tried to explain to Beatr- why I wanted to give up *( I had no answers and no help- I felt I was at my wits end) So, she gave me hot tea at the table and I stayed awhile, cuz, the kids were coming home from school soon...This is honestly a TRUe story.. and if you were tring to invoke some feelings... You did from all of us who care....wE all dont' have an answer and things could be worse... YOu forgot those simple words-- ASk and Ye' shall recieve... So ask.. and keep it deep in your prayers.. and I forgive you if your mad and angery with me.... you use to read my feelings in my site kinda' often and you dont' anymore, I wonder if it's cuz, I hurt you with my own honest feelings... in some way- If I did.. I am really sorry... I love and care for you as any friend who speaks and feels honestly-- Now, that I wrote a book- I will gooooooooooo--- Your in my prayers~ Steve- Bye 4 now- HuGs&Love,Sheee P.S. Where would I be if I gave into my life with BAD thoughts or Actions??? not here on the DEN.. I wouldn't of met so many great kind Smart friends- and I wouldn't be with my girls.. or feel the love of my Granddaughter... etc........ So-easy! with your! thoughts,cuz- we do CARE! and Love ya' STevie- Please, don't be mad- My heart will feel crushed if I NeVER hear from you again.. I didn't buy and read all your books, cuz, I wanted memories YOu knowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.... : ( Now, cheer Up- and I will too-ox

Dear Steven,

Yesterday it was 18 years ago I lost my mom...and Steve you have tomorrow to live for my friend...remember one thing dear heart...I know the feeling of just letting go. But trust me on this one...to depart without the blessing of our LORD...I believe we will never meet our loved ones again...we will have to look the other way where is't HOT. So here I an take my hand and let us ask the LORD to us strong to be able to meet HIM and our loved ones when we depart from this world!!

DEAL?????

Warm hugs and LOVE Tinka

Very sad musings here STeve and very mislead, there is nothing in dying but they end, there is nothing in living but tomorrow. Tomorrow is always a chance for a new beginning.

Felix