Howling at the hollow sky above me Alone and lonely waiting out the night I only ask of God that he love me And if he would please would he put things right
Haunted unwanted I wait for good news With so little warmth and even less light Drowning in words not knowing what to say From what they tell me why would he refuse To hear the cry of one lost lapped by waves?
I feel his presence if from far away A sailor becalmed too far from the shore Afraid of night yet more of coming day With both hands full of emptiness held tight Alone where it is love alone which saves
Down deep hope flickers if ever less so Yet deeper still the hope of hope burns bright Too smudged and smoked and stained to light my way Drowning in debt which can never be paid
I founder as I flounder here alone On this rising tide with no place to hide I was not present when these plans were laid My past is full of those who loved but died And of my future nothing can be known
I ask for now not for eternity But ask and ask God grant what I ask for In memory of promises once made I stand like Peter sinking on the sea I just want him to love me: nothing more
God of my fathers my father is gone It was your will not his I came to be Although I fear it: bring me to your dawn O God if you are there remember me
STeve I hope all is well in your world for I can feel pain and confusion in your questioning of your own faith...great write though with so much expression in it.
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Your pain, apparent.
Your love, longing.
Your last line - petitioning.
May God continue to bless and heal you,
Kathy
Fee
He is a Father to the fatherless. Remember that. This one hurts so deeply, it closes the throat...I'm sorry. Powerfully, poignantly penned.
(((((HUGS))))) and love, Karla.