"The trophies of my troubles left behind trouble my mind"

Nowhere for Andrew Dreher When I lost everything I could not bring myself to look Into the most important places of my memory Until too late when I had to leave then so I forsook The most important things in my secret sanctuary Where I left my heart too with no one else there left to care So that the things I treasured most were what got left behind My high school diploma and a college degree or two My childhood coin collections in their bronze antique car banks Some hippie jewelry a golden girl made for me when I was a golden boy of fate and going to be great A few photos of some people no one else ever knew Mementos of my mother I will never find again Remembering my mother would say never mind but then Some souvenirs and letters about love or saying thanks About how I was published now and was someone at last My survival my arrival saying how I was there When who was there I find I left behind then to the past Because I could not bring myself to look until too late I had to turn my eyes away pretending to be blind Evicted victimized by crooked lawyers turned away From what I won for losing that I had to leave behind When I could see how it would be to lose then not to find What I had saved tomorrow for a rainy yesterday The day I lost my somewhere to be exiled everywhere The trophies of my troubles left behind trouble my mind But only I remember what is nothing now nowhere +Steven Curtis Lance Copyright MMXI