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Just Like Forever
At church the minister was so sure as to shout it
Far and near as maybe easier for God to hear
Inside looking out I saw me outside looking in
The condition though fatal not serious about
A cure and though unsure there was no doubt about it
Outside looking in I saw me inside looking out
As to me enduring was to be doing it wrong
Obsessed with sin there never knowing where to begin
I never thought forever was so temporary
As he made it appear to be or at least to me
I thought right or wrong it was about a sermon long
Forever in the negative was never to fear
The freeing of the soul as the unbeing of me
The measure of my wary fear of pleasure very
Much the pain of never wanting to be hurt again
Having to believe somehow I never had to leave
Believing because I was afraid to be leaving
Paradise my paradigm unfolding right along
Or if not unfolding holding steady if frozen
As a snowman slow to warm to cold reality
Having learned early to fear change and innovation
Having learned if I could not believe I would not be
Or not be where I would be there I could be for all
The days of always out of sight and out of my mind
Left behind as guilty still though by insanity
Whatever else it was an awkward situation
The permeating pall of permanence I knew then
So constantly strange to me the constancy of change
To be one way one day another way and day when
The time would come then for everything to change again
Never or forever not so hot or not for me
Reality not cold but realistic again
If forever ever was I started to doubt it
Let doubt about it all out let fall what I had known
Or believed I had known as it were scales from my eyes
As well as the part about us being the chosen
As I began to realize I was not alone
Began to realize how together we would rise
Now or never not to wait forever for the pie
Nor give life away to get a piece of it someday
Cooling on the window sill of heaven in the sky
I feel lonely for how it was before only now
But now or never here we are for now you and me
If we feel lonely now is only temporary
Just like forever always was and always will be
+Steven Curtis Lance
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