Not So Bad Though improbably I am probably Happier than I have ever been Somehow before now having never been To be incoincidentally In the end to see transcendentally Having found out my way out is in For my happy ever after to be Seeing in the end what I can see Now that I can somehow happier than Ever though I never was before Because I thought I had seen everything Having been so long seeing nothing I thought that was all but seeing some more Being some more seeing what I can I see how I am now is not so bad A concession of depression to The progress of the process of disease Multifoliate realities Unfolding like the lotus coming true Not so bad if I had to go mad To be glad to be if I had to fall Down through that crack in society To get up where I had to be to let Go and go see what I had to get I had to go free to see this is it Had to arrive at this the hard way Having survived it I may as well stay See what I mean in the in between If from the perspective of an old man Now I recall I am after all Just glad to see that old man must be me Being glad to be me finally Better late than never my best for last Learning the meaning of life from death Here in between this heartbeat and this breath Now between the future and the past To wonder when the unseen may be seen But until seeing what does it mean To understand being but to be glad? Not so bad if I had to go mad In the end to see transcendentally Steven Curtis Lance