How we look to the world is usually very different from how we feel inside.
I’ve hid myself
so many times
that I don’t even know me
And after nearly half a century
of misery I still look into my eyes
where in its soft hue
I can see my longing for you.
But deep inside
far out of normal sight
where hearts are felt
and hope resides
an internal debate pursues me.
Do I love me?
Do I love me not?
Soon every imperfection
becomes the basis for rejection
until all my strength evades me.
The love not’s win over the love I do’s
eroding any value accepted.
When tearfully I reflect
I never really wanted to know me.
I've had to learn this painful lesson myself: if people can't accept me for what I look like, phooey on them. I don't need to impress anyone but God and myself. :)
A shattering, powerfully penned reflection--and from what I see, you're beautiful inside AND out. So there. :)
(((HUGS))) and love, Karla. :)
Reviewed by Andy Turner (Reader)
Reviewed on September 11, 2005
Nice pair I mean poem.
Being transparent shows strength of character..
It's easy to morbidly introspect. Yet just as easy to joyfully do the same. The exterior is never the thing to love in others or oneself. Cos that changes almost daily. The inner man is the thing to love and fall in love with.
Ones gotta run and love with what they got. As one moves onwards and upwards. Either seeing the mud or looking at the stars...
Among your many qualities the one I cherish most is your capacity to recognize and face truth. Again, being truthful means that we can only accept and love aspects of our own existence. There is a continuous struggle to turn mud into gold.
Very reflective and deep
thought provoking
As Felix said, you have no reason to doubt yourself
Thanks for sahring your beauty :)
Reviewed by Kate Clifford (Reader)
Reviewed on September 10, 2005
One who shares their eyes are full of truth. This by itself makes you a wonderful person. Hopefully someday you will look at this photo and see the beauty we are all seeing beyond the eyes.
I don't know if this is your picture with this poem but if it is you are as beautiful outside as you are inside. I always wonder what those poets I read look like especially their eyes and yours speak volumes especially in tune with this poem. Beautiful and passionately written. You have no reson to doubt yourself Sara...
Felix
I've never liked camera's and they never liked me, I've taken more shots with my webcam than any in all my life;-)Because I finally said to hell with it, this is me like it or not! Excellent self reflection Sara! Great pic!We know it's about more than our facade!
A passionate and poignant memoir written by a woman whose life has been guided by the words: "I am here to learn how to love well." The book is a deep examination of relationships, family, motivation, and honoring of the Self.
Sepsis knocked her down and out. Faith, hope, and gave her the strength to get back on her feet. I am a Runner She fought the river of death They said she'd never run again
She proved them wrong...
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Excellent poemization in this depicting of a heart in search for freedom. "Making an Appearance" strikes the mind and touches the soul.
Keep posting Your jewels. Thank You.
Andre Emmanuel Bendavi ben-YEHU
I've had to learn this painful lesson myself: if people can't accept me for what I look like, phooey on them. I don't need to impress anyone but God and myself. :)
A shattering, powerfully penned reflection--and from what I see, you're beautiful inside AND out. So there. :)
(((HUGS))) and love, Karla. :)
Being transparent shows strength of character..
It's easy to morbidly introspect. Yet just as easy to joyfully do the same. The exterior is never the thing to love in others or oneself. Cos that changes almost daily. The inner man is the thing to love and fall in love with.
Ones gotta run and love with what they got. As one moves onwards and upwards. Either seeing the mud or looking at the stars...
thought provoking
As Felix said, you have no reason to doubt yourself
Thanks for sahring your beauty :)
Felix
Anyway...I see a beauty in this photo.!
Sandie May Angel a.k.a. Sandie Angel :o)
Eileen
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