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Three hundred and sixty five days
that will be how long in time has been
since my little daughter, mother of five,
has gone away, taken by Fate’s whims.
I wrote once about, “My little pal’s dead,”
no comfort there, no words can ever be,
parents shouldn’t witness their dead child
like a punishment for whatever they did.
An empty place in the heart remains empty,
there is no one around wanting it to fill
as remembrances rush down upon the soul,
she’s rushing no more to sit on my knee.
She was the last one that I endured departure,
of my five children He has taken three,
He certainly had tried to shake my faith…
maybe God, the most merciful, is testing me.
Long nights paved with black silences,
when I question if it’s real, paying for sins,
a tooth for a tooth, a life for a life, I wasn’t
a Christian Templar, but a soldier sent to kill.
The anniversary day, when Three Wise Men
arrived with gold, frankincense and myrrh,
a day when many children find their presents,
she was taken on the morning of January sixth.
Don’t tell the father that the little girl is gone,
his heart became total deaf, don’t want to hear,
because echoing inside that love cathedral, the
little girl’s laughter he forever will come to feel.
Someone said that for the father’s sins, the sons,
a life of desert’s wandering they will inherit,
but why should my little girl should had to pay
for whatever wrongs He thinks I did?
Sandra Cecilia 1963-2006 was taken from me on January sixth 2007
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May you find peace in her memories and in keeping your daughter's memory alive for your grandchildren.
Cryssa
May God give you strength for your grandchildren and for yourself. Your love is limitless as is your kind heart. Peace and all God's blessings to you and your family.
I send you peace, love and a BIG hug. Kathy
Regis
Love & Light always and in all ways,
Joseph*
I was unaware of this Georg! I'm sorry that you had to go through such trials with 3 of your children, it seems so unfair. I had only two sons and one of them was killed in a car accident(he wasn't driving). It was the worst blow I ever had !I don't think we ever recover from loss of one of our children,no matter what anyone tells us.
However I do know that death is inevitable for us all, so through prayer and understanding,I stopped blaming myself, which it seems all parents do, feeling guilt after losing a child. I hope and pray you will find comfort in knowing that it isn't a punishment,just a matter of timing which we don't yet know the reason for, but must trust in Creator until we are united once again with our loved ones. May God ease your suffering and bless you with comfort of the soul,so you won't punish yourself for something you had nothing to do with.
Eileen
Be safe,
Karen
Peace, now and always,
Dan
...in hopes it will be brighter in the heavens.
John
God called her home, and only He has the real answers...all we can do is have faith in knowing, that sorrow is all part of the plan...preparing or preventing, maybe ? I don't know...
All I know is, you, and the two closest men in my life have experienced a terrible unexplainable loss of a child. I have not, and hope I never do!
But, hearing the pain, feeling the anguish, knowing the void it has made...will ever-sound in my heart for you, my father and my husband.
I do know one thing, though, heaven IS a much, much better place...
and when the Good Lord feels I'm ready to enter, well, then I'm ready. Until then, I pray he forms and molds me perfect for eternity, no matter what it takes, no matter what it gives...I must keep that as my stronghold...God doesn't make promises he won't keep! ...and he does promise me a place at His right side!
I plan on being there...:)
Bless you during this difficult time, but know, a friend is still praying for you...
Love and Peace~
Kimmy~
why do you think death is a sin? or payment? death is transition and is celebrated in many beliefs..to ease your sorrow allow your memories to rejoice over the years she existed and not on the memories of her loss.
You didn't do anything wrong. Life gives no promise of ease, but clouds will come to all. Yet what a powerful inspiration you are.
I don't need to write as to why here, because you know. This poem cuts my heart like a knife through water.
Your faith is so powerful, you quote the OT and that was demolished, Jesus said, that their child was not blind/lame because of the sins of their father, no one can or should try to explain. My mother never knew her mother, and my granddads wishes were that mum never finds out the cause.
Yet I'm sure you feel your childrens' pressence. This breaks my heart.
You are a true gentle-man, giving, giving, giving, epiphany is giving. You are such a great overcomer.....
I will share with you in silence through my poem to my little girl Michele!!
After Twenty Years
I am not sad today
Just somewhere
In utter gray space
I just feel light headed
Spaced out
My body has no substance
Within this gray fog
That allows no vision
I do not want to look back
Or ever feel this pain again
Because on the 24th day of May
The biggest pain ever came my way
My little girl did die on this day
She did not see the sun go down
But received her angel wings
By the side of God
To prepare a place
For those still to come
Copyright © 2005 Tinka Boukes
Blessings,
Joyce B.
Blessings and peace, Carole~
Newfie Hugs Coming your way, Rose
Fee
My prayers for you and your family...
Love and Peace...
The emptiness will never fill & no amount of tears will ever release
I lost my parents when I was a child & I still feel it to this day 30 some years later.
Love & Hugs To You My Dear Friend
EMBRASSE'
Vickie
Sincerely, Christine
(((HUGS))) and love, Karla.
God be with you as you remember your angel, Sandra Cecelia; she was beautiful!! So sad!! A daddy shouldn't have to outlive their children!
Wonderful, beautiful, heartbreaking tribute to your daughter; she lives on in your heart, and we thank you for sharing her memory with us! God bless you and know that He loves you and that Sandra is keeping watch over you from Heaven!
(((HUGS))) and much love, your friend in Tx., Karen Lynn. :( >tears! <
And she is lovely.......my heart cries for you at this anniversary of loss, I am so so sorry. It was fate, not your punishment that she left this earth, please don't carry any poison in your heart over that misguided agony. You have enough just with the fact of her absence :(
A prayer for you and your family goes forth from my heart this morning as I read this poem of heartbreak........All the best.....and my condolences.......
You know something just came to mind, my daughter was born 20 yrs later on the anniversary of my father's death....he was killed in a car accident, so now I think of that day with joy....God bless.......pax Anita
"My little girl isn't here anymore" will stand at the doors of Time... A masterpiece.
I salute You, Poet.
In admiration,
Andre Emmanuel Bendavi ben-YEHU