It cannot be
about what I feel,
momentarily, when
a red-hot spark
ignites a
fiery ill-will in me
to destroy the enemy
as violently as I can,
and call it justice…
.
But how do I NOT
empower this thing
[in me]
roiling momentarily,
knowing that in the dark
depths of their twisted hearts,
a demonic ferocity personifies the
blackest evil seeking to slaughter me…
.
How do I protect those I love?
.
Praying fervently
against these
feelings that sweep
through me so easily,
this obscure craving to
eradicate all those others
who, after so many centuries still
remain chained in a paradigm of hatred…
.
How do I defeat them without killing them?
.
How do I avoid
acting on this rage
rising up in me, to
cut them down
permanently,
and then
stump them,
(as an arborist)
so that their roots
will never again pull
life up from its source…
.
I am not a violent man,
.
and I know,
of a surety, that
I must NOT empower
this fury in me, ferociously,
to kill them indiscriminately,
and even though my physical
vulnerabilities don’t lessen me,
they frighten me, because
I know that
if I rouse
my hatred to
fight their hatred,
I become like them…
.
So I cry out…
.
Father, have mercy
on your creation,
for it is dying now, and
we too, who in
these cracked clay
vessels appear as a mist
momentarily, and then vanish…
Father, have mercy on your people,
for though they are presently
blind and ignorant,
you love them
as the apple of your eye, and even though
much of prophecy revolves around them, Father,
we seek for our own hearts to deepen in the
Truth of what You are about to do
(what has already started)
on this planet prophetically, for the
wise of us know, beyond a shadow, that
man’s inability to remain quiet, listen, and obey,
are the conspicuous failings of all humankind…
.
© richard lloyd cederberg
11/2023
A NEW RACE OF HuMANS...
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I have moments deep into the night where it's just me and God, as I ask God where is all this globalist hell going to affect me and I feel deeply vulnerable, the rest of the farm is asleep and I challenge my "so called faith" in the world insanity. I have deep prayer moments where I am so enraged and angered by this degree of evil towards such innocent life I could scream at the top of the highest place on earth....There are times I'm so massively judgmental at these demonic people who do such evil and how I want to shake the living day lights out of them and say do you know your taking your self to eternal suffering and damnation!!!!!! They rejected Him over 2,000 years ago and still do ...Then I feel guilty because I should care more about their salvation.. Oh God....Never ending.. But some how I know His Bride will be so deeply VICTORIOUS by holding on longer and trusting ~
I ask myself through the depths of fears, insecurities of the stirring in events, of the audacity of the greatest evil of Satan and his vile sickening followers to the torture of God's people, innocent men, women and children and for the greed of material things that will pass away sickens me to the core!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I ask can I truly trust you God the way I'm called to by faith upon this darkened , sickening, lonely storm. ??? Or am I portraying to the world a false sense of me ? I examine myself all the time..
Then I have to say with all the end time events I'm having to deeply lean on Him because that's all the strength I need as He channels through me. I feel like we have been run over by a mack truck with all this massive fast moving crap storm!!! I'm helpless without Him, rejoice in Him and I deeply fear Him. I'm nothing what so ever without Him. I feel so compassionate for His creation and for His longing for us brother's and sisters to be saved, reunited by covenant..
He has revealed to me more in my times of just surrendering and when I praise Him more and speak more to Him He reveals such profound revelations...His love is so powerful because He is our very best friend forever...His character is so filled with kindness, glory, warmness, beauty, yet so deeply authoritivly stern ......He is a God of mercy and justice, yet He also is a God of battle war... I'm so blown away how He chose us all at this period and it's for a profound purpose of our gifts back to the world of what He's given us..... With that at times I don't want the responsibility of being called to serve because it entails going out of my comfort zone to some degree. But how could I feel or think that when He gave it all on the lonely walk and finally to that painful cross and when He sweated drops of blood at Gethsemane, He said prayed “If possible let this cup pass from Me, but nevertheless, not My will but Your will be done.”. So if He did that knowing what horror, what rejection greater than mine, what suffering and selfless greatest act He would give to all humanity, in forward, present and pass for all humanity, I can serve His creation and suffer too Richard. I can seek Him in the horrors, in my personal suffering because it is nothing compared to His He bore, knowing He gave it all and His love is so promising, never ending, so I owe it to Him, to the world of what His gifts are through me to give back...I'm growing ever greater everyday in His faith..
This is a time for great outpouring of many emotions, including deep sorrow, anger, setting boundaries with all, gaining loved ones, loosing some loved ones and friends, great shaking, great compassion, developing intense greater depths of discernment, ect... It's like a roller coaster...It is a time we need our sword of the Spirit more than ever like never before..
Be deeply rooted and strong in the faith in the coming days...
I know deep inside that we are in our finest hours on earth as He reveals His radiant glory to His Bride...I'm very excited for the coming beauty of His Bride..
God bless you and Michelle~ D