“People like that,” he said with a dismissive wave of his arm, “are poison to you.” The good doctor escorted me down the long, green hallway hurriedly, away from visitor claiming harm irreparable. “They’re not here for you.” That’s why, he explained, we had left our meeting prematurely.
Still as stunned so many years beyond that devastating day, knife stuck in my heart I stagger in dark dreams haphazardly toward shifting shadow shape of you I thought I knew so well. “I’ll be here for you,” you say and reach to heal bleeding wound. Again, I wake too soon.
Waking or sleeping, I cannot forget clouded words you spoke, remember why I still care to understand, make some sense of confusing nonsense that echoes like the hourly chime. Time still chasing me, I am unable to walk away from what is killing me.
Do people like you think of people like me as time and words kill slowly step by step down life’s long, echoing corridor?
She never felt safe at home as a young girl, and didn't understand why when she finally escaped she wasn't safe in the big wide world either ...effectively jumping out of the frying pan into the fire!
A passionate and poignant memoir written by a woman whose life has been guided by the words: "I am here to learn how to love well." The book is a deep examination of relationships, family, motivation, and honoring of the Self.
This is well written Dawn!