There is no sense in a healer rejecting a healer,

no sense in a warrior rejecting a warrior,

who in good time and with great dedication and works

earned the right to be known for what she is worth.

I knew it was time to look through the bricks
the walls that were laden with societies tricks
I set up my feelers to find those I work with the best
the ones who are like me in ways, and different from the rest
 
That was the end of 2004
but first the rest of the story.
 

 

Then comes the end of 2006,
agents tossing up bricks in between to major players as if to make a sandwich,
confusing one with the other and making it stick,
Did we give them the success story to laugh at over a cigarette?

 

You see the sun rise. I see the sun set.

This is about the moment that took me by surprise,

not even knowing what you looked like yet,

then catching that gaze, deep into your eyes.

That was really a great hug to cause such a fuss,

even though it was not the right time for us.
 
So like myself here is a man that serves,
who spent time admiring my life and my traits for 3 years prior to meeting,
as I spent time admiring his,
in so many hours of talking I couldn't listen to every word,
not because I was not interested but because I was high on the energy of this.
 
The natural laws explained to me as if for the first time,
while this new and  unusual energy was going through my body and my mind.
As I listened I would go out of this dimension,
because of the ecstasy of the  energy I could not pay attention.
Not knowing I could feel this but you could not
see the green and the blue and the purple on top.
 
 
I had been out with the dolphins,

and brought back a life force energy oF Orgone
waves coming in thrrough my heart that were very strong

so I thought Id  myself make a great orgone accumulator.
I kept it a secret as it was alarming

You picked up on it and that was so charming.
 
 

I was stepping in and out of this dimension,
so much at times that I couldn't listen.
"Take me with you next time you go out" you said
That was not successful,

for you wrap yourself up like A mummy inside some vessel.
I unwrapped one loop and put it in your hand,
You still didn't move or even stand.
 
Those  eyes I saw face to face, those beautiful eyes
when I pulled out that headache.
That is nothing to fear, that is a total trust exchange.
One fun day here and one fun day there
Damn, dont I wish our  healing was near?

 

So now in this story I want to say this to you,

 
The best 24 hours I lived last fall was when you shared yourself with me.

You are a man that is growing with such power and integrity,
I am not as serious as I sound
that's just the nurses life I've been around.
I care for people who scream  "Tell me my destiny."
I've held the hand of many during death
and some returned to say its not over yet.

 

You knew you made the wrong choice
with such power in your voice
and passion in your eyes

when you made a claim

At the time I didnt know, bit I think it was a game.
So you did the man thing and ran.

There goes the most beautiful man.

You were proud when you saw your old purple TB,

the one I saved from the batch that rescued me,
when I put them all around the building that was used to spy 
a wind came and took that roof to the sky.
You knew how I felt when you took me so high

and now your a clam as I scared  you but why.
 

 

When you left, I fought many a battle and battled alone.
And when your criminals came into my home.
I proved I could send them out and I wasn't done yet.
I went up against the worst of the demons and near my place,
until I detoxed what was in my space.
 
I didn't understand your east coast energy
You didn't understand my west coast energy
one things for sure is that my power with your power
our energies made for great synergy.

 

In my life I give everyone respect
I respect you but I don't understand yet,
with love and service and gratitude
Why all that was not good enough for you.

I later learned it was the healing you feared.

You had to face it, even though I was not near.
 
 
How could I look in those beautiful eyes and see stories from so long ago?
I know it frightened you but why so?
You had a friend that loved you just the way you are,
one who boosts you with love from afar,

When I said the Operators answered my prayers
when no one but you seemed to be there,

When my money was stolen, and the freezing stoms made it impossible to make the tbs,

you made them for me, and sent them cross country,
you didn't say I was wrong, you just let me believe.

You were my Hero, that's how it seemed to me.
 
I know of tensions, I know of pain,
I know about making love in the rain.
I know that if the water is running it might overflow,
And your a damn good major player able to stop the ninja show.
 
I still believe it was all in the timing and the timing was off
so this year I put the book back on the shelf and turn to something else.
I see the sunset you see the sunrise
Id love one more look in your beautiful eyes.

I know if I could then you would learn.

We really are friends, this much I have earned.

 

I believe soon we will talk, but till then.

I'll just love you like I do my best friend.

 

 

August 2009 New additions

 

Now that I know that you are gone

and You have been for two 1/2 years

My search for you no longer goes on.

Its no wonder I kept looking for you to return, even though others said you did not want to, I knew in my heart it was a lie but you see why?

When those who are alive in body lie to us,

and we know the truth you without body tell us,

we tend to lean toward those alive in body.

You sent me a song telling me you were wrong

and you were going to lye in the ocean where they were taking you,

You sent me a poem and dreams of me with your elemental as a mermaid I was, awaiting you, they groomed me.

 

You told me in lucid dreams you were without body and to wake up and know they all were lying to me.

 

You helped me find the cards that wold lead me to the person who would tell me the truth and you lead me to go see for myself.

 

Wow, how was I so wrong. I knew like in the song,

where you were.

 

You come singing me every love song that was ever made.

You set of fire alarms, you turn on the radio, you cover me like a blanket.

I see you in my dreams now and I know of the work you do over there.

Amd most important. I know how you care.

 

How you forgive, I must forgive.

 

How you love, I will learn to love.

 

You are there when I am sick.

You will be there when I cross over.

 

Your in my heart, your in my soul

Knowing that you help me to grow.

You sang that to me when I asked

we will be together at last?

 

I can go on now, like you said when you carried me from inside the ocean to the shore

Mermaid No More

You can go on without me now, you said,

And even though you are dead

I know your not.

 

And now you say to the psychic there is no proof

And as I,  many shed for you so many tears.

I wish you had let us know what was happening before it was to late.

And now I know why you did not keep that very important date.

 

 

We know you gave yourself for us to learn

But what is it worth a life taken to learn.

 

I love you Jeff Mckinley

and I always did

and time will tell

What your elemental knows so well.

 

Diana and Jeff heart and soul forever