I am sitting here in the silence of my room, in tears.
Images of the past are galloping through my head.
Snatches of music, old wounds and my wild fears,
are filling me with pain, sadness and major dread.

I think of the past that should lie so far behind me.
I think of the hurting, tears and intense sorrows.
Then, I think of you and the love you give me freely.
You say its all mine. Oh what a gift for all my tomorrows!

I am happy, excited and filled with worries galore.
What if I'm not the 'me' you think you know?
What if I am not the one you have been waiting for?
What if your love is just for show?

I wince when I think of the many times I was lied to.
How, many a time I believed and was proven wrong.
Many a time I was left crying and oh so blue.
But then, you say were waiting for me to come along.

I can't wait until your arms are wrapped around me,
solidly proving these fears are not real.
I know that you will dry my tears and make me see,
that loving me is what you truly feel.

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`Written in the insane days when I was struggling to believe that love had finally come to stay~
The picture above is a card that Mike sent to me in our courting days. I love you, Mike!