Rehab has become
His temporary home
And he's taken to the changes
With aplomb
He's my hero, he's my friend
He will always be my brother
And now he's on the mend
So grateful for the small things
he can do
A valuable lesson for me
And You
When life is already
too short to sign
on the dotted line
There's no guarantees
that last a lifetime
For no one knows
when that is
It's God that gives
and God that Takes
And He that should
Decide
Who dies and who Lives
And each day it felt
Like my bro
Was on death row
On Life support
I know....
And I can't describe
How hard it felt inside
To watch helplessly
His struggles
And the tear he tried
to hide
When i walked away
Out into Londons cold
grey wet rain
Not knowing if i would
Ever see him again
So many times been put
On "standby"
Too shocked to even cry
And now he's better and
the tears do fall
And i've got a permanent
Line to God
To call
And i Know he's receiving me
All the prayers you have sent
Have helped John tremendously
To heal and recover
And rediscover a new way of Life
To preserve his humour
And give me strength
To carry on
My own life
When i felt my blood drain
Along with his
It's like i was cut in half
Nothing can explain
The resonant pain
I could feel inside
watching my blood brother
with alien eyes
wondering if he could recover
such a trauma
seeing him slip into an
alternative universe
not knowing whether to pray
scream or curse
so i did it all
I questioned why
He had to fall
How and why this could
happen to someone so nice
I'd sit on the train
and hear people complain
about their lives
And i'd think to myself
how big they make these
problems seem
It was like i was sleepwalking
in a treacherous dream
I felt my heart harden
And i had to say STOP
I knew if i hadn't told myself to
I would lose compassion for
everyone including you
I wanted to scream
at their petty complaint
And say walk into accident
and emergency
See the man with no face
The amputee
The brain damaged girl
who later died
The doctors overworked
And the nurses who cried
They are all human
Saving lives
that thought once too
that they were invincible
What i am getting at
Is the Principle of
Being grateful
I never thought i could
I never thought i would
And i still am not sure i will
But if i do
All i can say is thank you
And be the best person i can.
Thanks to John and a glimpse
Into his alternative universe
I no longer see life as a curse
But a gift that is God given
I have my own earth angel now
who says he's happy.
How can that be?
It's not for me to question
this positivity
I just hope it's contagious
because i am so unhappy.
(c) andrea jane williams 9th February 08.
dedicated to my darling earth angel brother.
In God we Trust.
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