I bled for a reason - I wanted to;

each drop my own; slowly watched

the sentiments leave my heart.

Any and all feelings I once had, I

now watch them depart; like the

hands on a clock - thrown away

But the seconds keep ticking.

So, if you need to find me, I'll

be drifting through the dark

looking for any signs of sympathy

and begging for night's mercy.

My life is no longer the same

Ghosts from my past haunt me

with undried tears - I am numb

As time goes on and on.

I am out looking for my best

friend who died at such a young

age - he meant the world to me

Can't let the memories fade away.

One by one, life's distractions seem

to get in the way - and I am somehow

afraid of walking through the door that

leads to the other side.

A place where parts of my life gather

piece by piece every time I lose a

loved one or friend - and if I enter, will

I be able to say the right words?

And if I found my best friend, or even

a loved one, what would I do if they

turned away from me in disgust - for

not having done more in life with them.

I've got to get back to a reason - rekindle

my hope, and the feelings in my heart

Time to awaken and stand back in the

place marked 'Be a Man'; and I did!

'2008' RLS