As I go...life happens I came home, started living again, and now I am really working my other site. I have an ning site that I use to promote my writing here and to bring other writers and publishers, muscians together and regular joes as well. I have not had any episodes of depression, had any sadness.. I am fine. Compeltely healed of all. I don't think of the abuse any longer, I have no anger towards my mom or dad or anybody. My writing is finding new areas again to spread its wings in. Try a different genre than abuse and trauma, drama.
I have even opened myself up to love somebody. When the change happened , it didin't mess around... It just went, "poof" and it was done. Now I see where it will lead my writing. I am done with focusing on the bad, and want to find awesome things to write about now..I think i will finish the last 2 short stories I started on here.. that sounds like a good idea.