I'm a middle aged university student! 2/25/2009 11:32:15 AM
The adult student.
In the later stages of last year I decided I wanted to start working towards a university degree. Why? Because I felt ready for the challenge.
A degree won't grant me a qualification which will suddenly allow me to do the job I have always dreamed of doing because, frankly, I am doing that job already! I want to do this for me, to understand more about this physical world around me. I want to do this for the sheer pleasure if learning!
One step at a time.
I think part of this 'kicked off' because of something I took up last year: learning the classical guitar. I found a great deal of enjoyment in learning to understand not just the notes music but the nuances within a piece of music. I never imagined that this joy of learning would take me to university!
At first I looked into what courses I might like to take, and found classes I would never have dreamed of! I looked, examined, tossed up, and decided what I wanted to do. It was, however, one thing to talk about it, bit was another to go ahead and do it!
I was not scared though, it all seemed so natural. Even when I enrolled and paid it all seemed natural.
The scariest part, the part that made me think 'Oh what have I done?' was when the course material arrived! A folder holding a stack of pages two inches thick!!! When I started looking through it I really wanted to back out and run!
I continued to read. I continue to panic. But the more I read, the more I thought to myself 'I can do this.' And I can! In fact, not only can I do this, but I am doing this! The first paper started this week.
If I can do this, anyone can. So, if you doubt yourself? Stop. Believe that you can do anything. It all begins with one step.
I am ready for this new journey. Some people have suggested I go to university full time and get the degree quickly, but I am taking it slowly doing a paper or two (or maybe even three) a year, and continuing with what is truly important to me: writing and spiritual evolution.
