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augh* 8/11/2005 2:05:43 PM
Still lost in a gray state of being. . . So, it is now Thursday night. I've been waiting for this week to end. In fact, I've waited for every week to end these past couple of months.
My motivation is actually in the negative right now. So hard to care about things some times. Everything in this world has a catch and there is not one single thing that is ever perfect nor near perfection.
I am bored, bored and bored on top of that. I feel as though I'm lost somewhere out in this large world and need to find myself such as you would find your soulmate. Perhaps once I find my soul, I can find its mate.
I feel as though I'm new to the world and trying to learn to speak the language. I'm stuck on trying to pronounce and learn the definition of the word "Meaning" What is Meaning? Does it drive our life force? Does it matter to our dreams, to our loves and to our fears? What is it? I'm trying to find Meaning, but it just eludes me. Tricky little creature Meaning is.
Once again, I find myself sitting in front of this computer pondering over many things. Pondering over something said, something felt and days that are yet to be.
I'm just thankful that tomorrow is Friday and then can focus on the weekend. I'm hoping to go out this weekend, but time and fate has a funny way of changing plans or keeping them on course. All I can do, is sit back and just take life as it comes to me.
