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Love after divorce? 11/29/2005 3:07:05 PM
OK - I've pondered fate and have been trying to find Meaning (see previous blog posts) and have come to this conclusion: it is.
Life just is. There are no rules, no gimmicks, no lessons, no morals, no joys, no loves, no hates, no nothing because it just is.
I left for Las Vegas this Thanksgiving weekend and came back to my cold, winter-ragged state two nights later. While out there, realization that everything just IS hit me and flung me deep within another depression because I had held onto hope before realizing this universal thought.
I had held onto the hope that love exists and that two people can remain happy; however, I've started to doubt that belief. Relationships end all the time and while listening to the wedding vows of two of my friends, it hit me upside the head as though a great reminder: love is not serious. True love does not exist. Eternal love is a metaphor and unconditional love is a fairytale we tell ourselves to brighten our darker days when we have done wrong.
It's amazing how two people can stand before friend, family and swear to God that they will love each other until "death do we part" and then, shortly down the road, their paths split apart and they divorce. How can a vow so serious be ignored?
Perhaps I am just old-fashioned. I had always wanted to be someone's first wife and work on maintaining that fairytale image; however, it's hard to find guys out there now that have never been married nor have children already. How can you be someone's second, third, fourth, etc choice in someone's heart when it had already been full enough to the brim before to make that vow with someone? Is it possible for the heart to bounce back from that pain?
