I am dreaming of living on my mountain in the middle of the forest and having cook outs and campfires with family and friends!!!  Yesterday, I let the vision go.  But it keeps coming back--stronger than ever.  And now I know, if we don't get the house we are looking at--we will find another near the Peaks of Otter, where I can look out my window and see God sitting on the mountain!

What changed from yesterday, when I gave it up, and today when I am all excited again?  I know what changed.  Before yesterday I wanted something.  I wanted it achingly, agonizingly, amazingly.  I wanted my house on the mountaintop but I wasn't sure if I should have it.  So, after much struggle, I gave it up.  We only have so many resources and I wasn't sure if we should put so much of ours into a house.

Yesterday, I surrendered my vision (my desire) to my Heavenly Father.  I don't have to have it.  I can be happy without it.

THAT, I believe, was the crux of the matter.  Anything other than God that we HAVE to have to make us happy becomes an idol.  Now, I don't have to have it.  But driving through the forest to a mountaintop to go home, and sitting in front of the Peaks of Otter to write my thoughts, rocking on the back deck while overlooking the valley--yes, that would delight me no end. 

Will I be happy if I don't get that?  Yes.  Absolutely, amazingly, awesomely happy--because I don't need a house on a mountaintop to be filled with joy.  I am in an awesome, amazing, astounding relationship with  the God who sits on the mountain--and that is enough.