"Stalling here I polish every word"

And Life Goes On In this my seeming afterlife persisting Longer than I had intended to Alternately accepting and resisting Remaining I wonder what to do Since death is a crisis I could ill afford Betting it all one shot letting go An agonizing stop to what is moving A stop to the suffering even so Stalling here I polish every word In case someone reads what I leave behind As my testimony to a dream deferred Waiting for the time when I will know Noting absurdly my body improving Going to waste with my mind never mind That Lutheran practicality Noting all the exercise was not in vain That promise of perfectibility Toward which I could aspire to wait it out although That could take awhile Asks me what remains to be should I remain I could stand to stall more if I waited in style Alternately accepting and resisting But fear goes out of fashion When it comes to being gone In this my seeming afterlife persisting I am equally afraid to die as live but still Death is a one time act of the will But life goes on and on and on And life goes on +Steven Curtis Lance Copyright MMX