Some of How for Maria In my right mind and then out again I understand how it is not right now And wonder if it ever was how It was because it does not remember But gets what got me through November Arriving the hard way surviving it Into December of having been It might not be right but might not be wrong To be mindful having been so long The how of ever it is however Or never mind what not to forget I get it is better to be than not If not getting better what I get Is this is the what of my whatever Handed down to me a legacy I got from both sides of my family What I got the hard way but I got Is this is it and the way out is in Being myself doing what I do In this the who of ever I am who Had better do it now than never A stranger in an ever stranger land With news so stupid it hurts my head The dead are better off without instead Of a live show deadening to see Bickering on a flickering TV When I wonder but I understand This then is what they call reality If I get to be if I let me If this is the when of my whenever And this is it when I get to be If though not right how I might be right now Some of how it gets better somehow To get to be gets better than ever Summoned now to become some of how I might not be right but what is left of Me can see all that is left is love Steven Curtis Lance