An Outside Chance for Franziska A deputy knocked me upside the head Inside after I had returned from the dead But that was when I was young before Turning out to be ill I learned to keep still Not anymore The next time I was old enough that they Chose from those younger to rough up anyway Diagnosed I was dosed with a pill Or two then in the lockdown psych ward until Knocked out that way The orderlies who were like deputies With orders and orderly priorities Enforced the disordered with a twist Of force and of course I knew should I resist They would insist I teased an orderly about his hair Almost got knocked out about it then and there But too much paperwork if I died Tied down to that yellow board so we both tried To look away Three times an unsuccessful suicide Every time was my crime why I was inside Haunted always wanting to transcend Not giving up I do to the living end Mad but not sad Happier now than I have ever been Because as it was then I had never been I took a chance I forgot I had What I got from inside looking out somehow Glad I did now On an outside chance outside looking in That I take to be making the best of it What I learned from inside looking out Turned out to be now but never mind about The rest of it Finding myself out of trouble I stay With hounds in a Hi-Desert hideaway Steven Curtis Lance   +Stevie Steppenwolf by Franziska